Adam

In the madness of my addiction i'd lost my way

fighting a losing battle every single day

the hurt i felt, the pain i'd caused

killed me inside till i felt no more

screaming and shouting, wanting to break free

but there's that voice again telling me your not ready

you cant do this, you fail all the time

you'll never be nothing so why even try

you know u want me, pick up the phone

he'll only be half a hour and the pain will be no more

that lovely brown powder cooking on the spoon

you can taste me all ready youll be flying to the moon

that warm fuzzy feeling that makes you feel safe

you know you want it so why hesitate

pick up the phone and do it already

you know dam well you'll never be nothing

I've had enough I'm on my knee's if there is a god help me please

I'm ready to surrender I'll give it my all

i'm sick of all the pain and sadness i have caused

I'm hurting my family, im seeing them cry

the pain and fear weeping from there eyes

Adam you can do this, please just one more try

i believe in you, I'll be there right by your side

let's get the help we'll do it together

whatever it takes to see you get better

im doing it mam i made a promise to dad

i'll make you proud one day and ill leave it at that

just give me time i need to do this on my own

i wont let u down just please don't give up hope

two and a half years sober I've found my way

i love the man i am today

full of gratitude bursting with pride i cant believe i made it out alive

I'm on a journey with sunshine on my face

filled with laughter every single day

feeling happiness, sadness no more

everyday a miracle walking out the door

finally through the battles i fought

I'm now helping others giving them support

through the daily struggles, they will succeed

recovery connections we are a family

i made a plan, set some goals and within time i become a recovery coach

if i can do it so can you

my life is beautiful and i wish it for you