Connection: Family

Before I started my recovery, with regard to my father's family, I had no communication with them. I felt inferior and isolated. I felt that I was worthless because I was not able to maintain a conversation like they did. If I spoke, I would get tongue-tied, and I felt very small. It made me remember that I was not able to maintain a stable relationship or a job.

I have not considered myself a good mother or a good daughter. I have felt that I was not doing well with my family. I have judged myself a lot, I think I have done them a lot of harm.

Before I did not feel good about myself at all. I avoided looking into their eyes, hoping that time would pass quickly so I could return to my cave where I felt safe and I did not judge myself.

The last time I was with them I felt like one of the family made me feel listened to. I felt that I mattered because they asked me questions about myslef and I expressed how I felt. I told them what I had learned at the Center and I felt very cared for, protected and united with them.