Ben

Rebirth in Recovery

The Monster In Me (In Addiction)

Like a darkened creature of the night, I would cower in my hole,

No light, no peace, no happiness, only darkness in my soul.

No chance for joy, no chance for love, a heavy load to bear,

No path for a way to feel, a way to live, a way to truly care.

A vampire life, without control, a desperate call to feed,

But my blood comes in a bottle, and it’s that poison that I need.

Like a changeling howling out in pain at a mere glimpse of the moon,

I wished for release.

How could this life, this precious gift, which started out with hope,

end up within this web of lies, without the strength to cope?

I’ve lost it all - my life, my loves, my reason to survive,

I no longer know how it must be to really feel alive.

The Rebirth (In Recovery)

I’m not alone, they are like me, and they want me to do well.

The welcome is a contrast to my living life of hell.

This group of love, support and hope is such an open place,

We work together, small steps as one, because life is not a race.

The lessons that I need to learn are honesty, truth and love,

These things will start me on my way, there is a star above.

It will be hard, there’s work to do, but never on my own,

I’ll make my way by working with the tools that I’ve been shown.

The joy and love that run through life had never gone away,

It was me who forced them out because I knew no other way.

My thoughts are clear, my mind is strong, I’m taking back my power,

I’m free to learn and loving life, enjoying every hour.

Accepting just who I am and just where I’m meant to be,

Is key to this great journey as I’m learning humility.

I don’t want to be a hero, or a mounted Knight in White,

I just want to live out my best life – I’m finally seeing the light.